Need...or not...:)

Have I forgotten how to need? I am in a new relationship but I won't let myself need him. Then there's the back and forth in my head "is it healthy to need anyone?" vs "everyone needs to be needed" I want to be needed but I am afraid to need. NEED is so different then Want or Desire. I am very comfortable with my desire for this new man and I am open about wanting to be with him but to say that I need him...hmm...and it could simply be that it is new, which it is. On the other hand I feel that this is the healthiest relationship I have been in since freshman year of college. I feel such a sense of calm. I am not always yearning for something to be said or for him to prove something. There is no baggage. There is no drama. He's not married. He's not orthodox Jewish. He's not an immigrant with memories of a war torn homeland. He's not someone I have a past with. He's just simply a guy who has had relationships and who was single when I met him just as I was just a gal who had had relationships and was single when I met him. When I met his parents and they didn't hate me nor was it some huge fanfare, it was simple, it just was. I want to spend time with him but I also want to spend time not with him. I adore falling asleep next to him but I relish in sprawling out alone. No matter what I am thankful for him. I am thankful he arrived in my life when he did. I truly hope we continue to enjoy one another's company for I love being held, being kissed, being silly, being intimate, being the other piece to the puzzle. If it does come to an end then I can come back and read this and know that at this moment that I have opened myself up to someone and that is worth it in and of itself. I know that this past year has been about returning to center. I still have traveling to do to get there so I will continue to strive to be in the present moment, to be honest and to make choices that bring me closer to the peace within...always there...and that not needing him may simply be a sign that I have evolved...the jury is still out on whether I truly believe that and I am OK with that :)